I wake up in the morning feeling like I must have been beaten with a baseball bat while sleeping. Only I know that’s impossible, because I don’t really sleep so I would know if someone was in my room assaulting me. I fall asleep around 9:30 pm. Then I am up at 2:30 am and again at 4:30 am which is really inconvenient when I usually have to be up by 5:30 am. I have constant back and leg pain. I have a sore neck and shoulders. My body is tender to the touch every day. Upon waking, my stomach aches. It twists and turns. Even though I may hunger throughout the day, I seldom have an appetite or interest in food. I am tired and cloudy in mind. I forget movies I have seen, conversations I have had, why I walk into a room, and what I was just about to say or do. My eyes are dry and itchy. Headaches interrupt my work. I cry at least once a day and have frequent bouts of frustration and anger. I am uninspired, fatigued and I lack enthusiasm. I rarely socialize with friends anymore. I typically just want to lay down and watch tv until I fall asleep and all of what I described happens all over again.
I have fibromyalgia.
I am starting this blog as a way of navigating this condition. I am not new to these symptoms, but I am new to this diagnosis. If you read this and have any advise or words for me, I will gladly read them. Thank you.